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October 2nd, 2007 at 10:33 am

I haven't been home much. Got home from visiting with the DGD just in time to get things ready for a visit from inlaws, then another trip to visit the kids with inlaws, then home....It's been a lot of fun, but I've not been home much since August. In between, I've been tracking and getting supplies for storms, paying bills, taking animals to the vet, etc. I tried to get back on track this last week, but I think I blew a fuse in my brain. I went nuts on spending. For three solids days, I spent money. And not on necessities. Some things were in our plans already when we finished painting the rooms, but I did find some good deals and went ahead and spent for it. But, that only accounts for half of the money spent. I finally realized I was out of control and exhausted and stressed. Hubby came home from visiting the DGD for his weeklong vacation, but I had already called and confessed. I don't know why I didn't take additional medicine. Maybe because I was alone for several days and didn't want to be a bit fuzzy. Or maybe I enjoyed the spending WAY too much. Until I realized what was happening. Still, even though I had a tickle in the back of my brain warning me, I still continued till I finally stopped myself. I even left a few bags in the truck until dark so my neighbors wouldn't wonder what the heck I'd been up to with all these bags of stuff. That's sad...but funny. Fortunately, it didn't totally crash our bank account. We'll be okay. But I sure need to work on more strategies to cope when things get a little intense for me. Especially, long term intensity. I haven't set up my budget for this month, and I think that was part of my problem. A budget really strengthens my resolve and keeps a set of goals in my head and a restraint on my pocketbook. I definitely am one person who needs The Budget in my daily life. I'm going to see the therapist today. That is probably a very good thing....

1 Responses to “Imploding.....”

  1. ceejay74 Says:

    So sorry to hear about it! :-( Any chance you can return the nonessentials to the stores?

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