Poor DD. She called to ask if I'd look up one of her classes to find the room number because she accidently left her purse at her home. She also missed a class yesterday because she got the time wrong and sat outside of it while it was going on. She said she is losing her mind. She's taking a lot more hours than she has tackled before and I'm proud of her. She has a lot of the same disorders I do and has been through a lot. Now, she is on new medicine and we're seeing how things go. I keep trying to tell myself these are normal things that college students go through, but I am hypervigilant when it comes to her. Now she is on campus until late without any money for food, no id, no nothing. I could call my DS to go help her out since he lives there, too, but she can do this. Sometimes, I can handle these things calmly and rationally. Sometimes, I don't. I try not to let her know, because she doesn't want to set me off. This time I reached out. I called my Hubby to talk me off the ledge of freaking out. I'm glad I was able to get him on the phone. I am going to do the schedule I had set for today. I am NOT going to go spend money. I don't usually take my additional medicine because I don't want to drive after, but today I might try that option. I can do that after my errands. We are a work in progress here. Recognizing normal problems and normal reactions is the hard part. Whatever normal means.....
Living on the Ledge....
January 25th, 2007 at 05:52 pm
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I know where you are coming from. When I was your daughter's age and in college I also suffered the same medical issues and at that time there were no medications available. It was without doubt the hardest time of my life. Your love and concerns for her are real and she is definitely lucky to have you for her mom. I'm thinking of you and her.
Marymara
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January 26th, 2007 at 12:36 am 1169771795
I have my hypervigilant moments here as well.